How come when things are good they are soooooooooooo good? Is it a total different mind set? Sometimes I can get really irritated at myself and wonder WTF Jen? What is wrong with you? Why do I let certain people in my life and let them influence my thoughts, my dreams, my emotions? Unbelievable. I have been in such a thick fog and felt like I was absolutely drowning and there were no life rings around. But............ today is different. I feel like I am in so much more control of my thoughts, feelings, goals, dreams, the past!!!! There is something deep inside of me that has been screaming to get out and when you quiet yourself long enough it seeps out and yes as it infects you and everything around you temporarily but then it can be gone. Dissipates, evaporates.....yes! There is also someone deep inside of me that has been screaming to get out...............me! The me that is a different from before. The me that is healthier, lovelier, even more beautiful! The me that has so much more tosay. The me that has an opinion. The me that will let go of the past once and for all. So to everyone in my life you have to give for what you take. There is a balance and if you don't give what you get then you miss out. I no longer belong to anyone and nobody belongs to me!!!!
When you want it you want it, doesn't matter what it is, if it doesn't hurt you ............. then I so go get it!!!
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