So my journey begins............. there is so much to say and so much that has already happenned.  But in a nutshell my journey is about becoming FREE.  Free of pain, suffering, anger, resentment, fear, sorrow, hurt!!!!
I am so tired of not being free.  I am tired of the "have to's" of life.  I cannot decide if I am not free because of my own mental and emotional inabilities.  Or because of the past that has grabbed hold of every part of my being and won't let go.  Either Way I'm done!  So tired of not really being true to myself.  Along the way I have always said that True Love Conquers All!  That was my motto of life.  But the true love I was speaking of was of the love from my husband.  I couldn't live without him.  I couldn't even stand the thought of him ever being upset with me or disappointed in me.  His love was so true and so much that it suffocated me.  And what I didn't know was that it is the love of my true self that will conquer all.  I consider myself a pretty smart person so how could I have been so blind, and oblivious that the choices in life that I was making was actually hurting me and keeping me from healing myself.  So my journey will be to release the past, to allow true friendship to blossom from deep inside of me, to allow myself to like the me that everybody knows and the real me.  All of me.  To allow God into every part of my heart.  Everyday my kids remind me of how lucky I am.  How special they are.  How special I am.  I have learned so much from them.  I will continue to learn so much as they grow older.  More to come.........